My biggest problem is where I live. I am lonely here. All of my friends are in another state and no matter what I do it seems like I get pushed back to where I am. (That counts for all aspects of my life as well. Financially, career, dating, and so forth) It seems like I can never get a head in anything. So, I eat for comfort.
December was a really hard month for me. I became really depressed. There were times I did not even want to get out of bed. I just wanted to sleep the day away. I didn't care about much of anything.
Again a lot of this had to do with the fact that it seemed like I could not get ahead in anything. There were two or three times that it snowed as well and I could not go up to Virginia or anywhere. That meant I was stuck in my lonely apartment. If I wanted to play in the snow I had to do it alone. Not to mention that being stuck there meant, you guessed it, I ate more.
Not to mention that my childhood best friend who I spent endless nights listening to her romantic problems, was unseparable from, planned our weddings together since we were 5, picked someone else to be her maid of honor (matron of honor in this case). But get this I'm not even included in the wedding party! But because I assumed I was going to be I offered to give her a wedding shower.
After I got through the painful New Year's Eve weekend with my 2 Aunts and 2 Uncles instead of being around friends, I decided it is a new year and it's time to try again.
GOALS for 2011:
• Lose at least 50 pounds or more
• NEW JOB (muuuuucccchhh needed for happiness and health, my
current job is starting to cause more unneeded stress in my life)
• MOVE TO VIRGINIA!!!!!!
• Get closer to being able to go to Paris.
• Hopefully find a boyfriend.
With this all said, I've started fighting the battle of weight loss again.
I've also started job searching more actively again.
As far as Paris and moving to Virgina go.... that all depends on a new job because I can't move until I have a job there and right now there is no way I could ever afford to go to Paris.
As far as the boyfriend thing goes.... I don't know what to do about that. I've tried so many dating sites it's not even funny. You name it, I've tried it. I don't know where to go with that from here. Craigslist seems to be the only place I can get a date and obviously 90% of what is there is after one thing, which I'm not.